God?...

So about two weeks ago or so I went to Love encounter which it like a youth conference(church thing) so anyways we got there and all the youth were just so hooked on God it was unbelieveable. They would jump, dance, fall on the ground it was crazy. At first we just stood there watching and were sort of frightened. anyways I really wanted to do what they were doing and "get drunk" in the lord so I would pray and raise my hands and sing but I dodn't feel anything so I was actually getting angry at God and wondering why he would make all those other youths act crazy but nothing happened to me. Then this guy Kaleb came and prayed for my brother and I to "hear God's voice" but again NOTHING! I was getting very mad. I was questioning if God was even there or if God hated me. Yeah well right now I know he doesn't hate me but I am still confused about the whole God consept. I have been writing songs about God and Greg and Sarah have been saying that is God talking or something like that but for some reason when they say that it makes me mad cuz I don't understand it. I have just been confused for awhile. I just hope soon God will reveal himself or give me a sign or just talk to me or something. . .